Tuesday 25 October 2011

My miseries at Alliance High School.



I remember that day well, that dull morning. I remember the somber weather, the gloomy trees as we drove down the road from the pitiable town of Kikuyu. I remember the feeling I had; I felt this was the crowning of my auspicious achievements in Primary school. I barely noticed when we arrived; it all looked like we were driving through a forest until I saw the rusty blue and white gate; ALLIANCE HIGH SCHOOL, Strong to Serve. That was it; I was ushered into a ‘tubeiros’, a slave ship.

I arrived at around ten, the first thing I saw was the deformed school bus, the school bus at Alliance had a name, she was Priscilla, Priscilla is the kind of name that they gave to Ugly women who had pointed noses and possibly ate children. I remember my thought when I saw that bus, the bus made me imagine “They Have found Noah’s ark”. The bus was a bad omen, I was cursed.

I arrived at around ten, the first thing I saw was the deformed school bus, the school bus at Alliance had a name, she was Priscilla, Priscilla is the kind of name that they gave to Ugly women who had pointed noses and possibly ate children. I remember my thought when I saw that bus, the bus made me imagine “They Have found Noah’s ark”...I remember seeing bemused boys walking hurriedly to loot the dining hall of a concoction of milk mixed with water and tea leaves, this they called “brew” and it really was an illicit brew possibly made from human milk.

I remember seeing bemused boys walking hurriedly to loot the dining hall of a concoction of milk mixed with water and tea leaves, this they called “brew” and it really was an illicit brew possibly made from human milk. I remember seeing people run away from the dining hall a few minutes later. I was terrified, these boys were rushing in so desperately and now they were running away from the dining hall! Welcome To Alliance High School.

When you first enter Alliance high school you diminish, Alliance high school inculcates a hopeless feeling of insignificance. In Alliance high school you mean nothing and you don’t matter, you are nobody; you are just another inmate, another victim of merit. These were my impressions before I even got out of my father’s car.

Alliance high school was the biggest mistake of my life; I was never cut out for its culture and ostentation. Alliance high school was never meant for people like me. Alliance was meant for people who had grown up on breakfast cereal and chocolate, I had grown up on Bananas and Porridge, white sugarless porridge to be precise. Alliance was for people who lived in Karen not people from obscure residences in Nakuru. I had lived in a ghetto for nearly half my life and there I was in the midst of people who had lived in opulence. From the first day, I was a misfit in Alliance high school. How could the son of a pedestrian ever belong in the land of those with fat pockets? How could the son of a pedestrian who had grown up playing in the streets mingle with people who had play stations? I heard of the X box for the first time in Alliance high school. As I said, In Alliance high school you are insignificant. Alliance high school had its owners and I was just an intruder. Wait for more confessions of my miseries in this Godless school.

57 comments:

Anonymous said...

Not sure we attended the same Alliance High School mate. Whether the son of a Minister or a son of a herdsman, all were equal during my time.

KPaul said...

strong sentiments but i would beg to differ if anything alliance was a melting pot for all and sundry. for one there was a guy who had run from the LRA who made it to alliance when i was there and most of the students came from villages and not towns like nakuru.....

Cman said...

Dude. . . .excuse my unpleasanties but you either got a really messed up self-esteem or you simply went Alliance High school, not The Alliance High school. One doesn't fit in Alliance High, you make Alliance High fit in you the end result is a strong to serve gentleman!..Believe dat!

Anonymous said...

Ehh...msee...Ulienda ile bush yenye watoto wa ma CEO walidunga ma shorts Hadi forth ama Ulienda Bush gani msee? nyc piece though

Bernard Nderitu said...

Well I was never in alliance but I observe that as you call yourself insignificant, at least your dad had a car. There was no problem with an old bus (Priscila) something was terribly amiss with your perspective. My dad had no car, my school had no bus, there was no tea at 10 etc. Please consult a psychologist real fast!

Money Press said...

Apparently you were all at AHS very long ago...at least before 2000, In recent years a lot has changed, ask any recent Old boys, of course this is very exaggerated...

Sir Jo said...

You should read "Privilege" by Ross Gregory Douthat. Maybe then you would appreciate "ostentation" in the context of a school.

I attended the school you speak of in the years past 2000. Like you, I had lived in a ghetto (as you call it) all my life. But I my mind does not travel to those years without a smile forming on my face.

It was tough to be at Bush, I will admit. But it was not tough because of an oligarchic culture; rather Bush had a culture of its own. A culture so different from any background, be it wealthy or poor, that no one fit in. And since no one fit in, we all fit in.

There was a large number of students from wealthy families; identifiable by their crisp English, smooth baby faces and hands that had clearly had never touched a hoe. In the same breath, there were sons of poor families with calloused hands, faces dark and splotched from the sun; their heavy accents betraying their tribal affiliation.

I am tempted to look at the Culture of Alliance as thread that run in between the two groups; a culture that pulled down the aristocrats from their pedestals and forced the plebeians to straighten their backs. The allegory could work to demonstrate my point but I prefer to describe Bush as a narnia; an entirely different dimension into which we were all thrust.

We all wore the same green clothing; we all had the same metal boxes. The aristocrats had to learn how to mope; the plebs had to learn how to speak. We attended punishment parades together; we rose together; we neshed together. It was a world none of us knew.

So we dealt with it differently, as human beings do in strange situations. There are those who embraced the culture fully and it ingrained in them. There are those who fought it and it overcame them. All these, became busherians.

But a few chose a third path. They rejected it. In their hearts, they alienated this new world. It was not their world. And so some left. Some stayed and brooded.They did not engage Bush in any way; passively, they counted down days and let it pass by.

I am sorry Phil, but I believe you belong to this third group. Though, I may be wrong. Bush was never ostentatious. It was never socialist either. But it was different - very different. It taught us how to measure our worth; not by the wealth of our parents or the lack in our backgrounds, but by meritocratic standard that lives with all busherians to date.

As to whether that is a good thing or not, that is open to further debate. But we cannot debate Bush's affliction with ostentation- there was no such thing in the days between the Two Thursday when school would open and close.

patroba said...

MY DEAR BUSHMATE YOU MUST BE IN A BIG MESS WITH YOURSELF..SEEK A PSYCHIATRIST..

Anonymous said...

Well, I must say you went to a totally different Alliance High School. It is one of the few schools in the country which ensured that everybody was equal. irrespective of your background. All got equal opportunity!

In addition, there is a brilliance that goes with AHS old boys. Inspite of the misguiding nature of this piece, the language and flow is impeccable. This extends to other pieces that you have written. Believe it or not my dear sir, there is a spark of brilliance that you obtained from AHS.

This article has left me extremely disappointed.

Anonymous said...

dude yu got issues...all i will say is that you wasted your four years if this is the summary of your experience at The Allliance High school...
Some of us learnt alot of positives that help us til now.
FYI...the 'brew' was actually nice and i wouldnt mind having it even now..

mugo said...

u guy u are a liar....u say u lived ghetto life yet u say "that was the first impression before u got out of your father's car...i am a proud alliance high school alumni of 2011 and i say shame on you.

Unknown said...

just feel like laughing reading all your comments. It's actually refreshing to meet an Accrosian who didn't like AHS.

foenga said...

The article is exaggerated. The author was and still is a close friend, a classmate for 4years, and a long-serving deskmate. The issues raised were nt that serious-they were actually minor. We each fit in as we chose to. Some of us chose 2mk friends across the divide, join clubs n societies, teach ourselves hw to communicate in gud english, leadership skills, teamwork etc. By end f4, we were transformed 4rm te little timid village boys to strong men, wit a busherian ego n presence that sets us apart 4rm te rest-even now-wherever we are. Personally, i gained from bush more on the other spheres of life than academically (i passed KCSE bt i stil culd hv passed it in any otha skul). Te prayer-that we may go out strong in body,mind and character-was answered.

Anonymous said...

you have serious issues, bush was nothing like you have made it out to be. Get help before you go postal.

Anonymous said...

i dare say shame on u! The conditions may nt hav bin heaven bt ny1 who went there knowin wot they wnt walked out proud. It changed many n made even more. Ur the problem

Anonymous said...

My guy...seek help before u go nancy baraza on someone...i hope the second part doesnt see the daylight

Anonymous said...

Do you really think a rich kid from runda found bush normal? Bush was the meeting point of the rich and the poor. Fits all. Leave your high class at the gate 'kula marro'. Leave your low class at the gate 'kunywa uji ikona sukari'. Never before have i seen rich kids mix with poor kids and 'middle' kids that an outsider would have trouble telling them apart.
Wacha uwongo. Bush was 'classless'.

Anonymous said...

Well, at least classless a lot of the times.

Anonymous said...

Well, at least classless a lot of the times.

... said...

Are u sure ur not from mangu?

Shady shades said...

if i mat echo what others have said already- your piece has lots of contradictions. one hand you come from the ghetto but on the other hand you despise the 'brew' that was being served in the dining hall. that sounds like something someone who had "grown up on breakfast cereal and chocolate" would say. Need I talk about the fact that your father owned a car which to this time is a luxury many Kenyans and AHS families can not afford.
On a separate matter, I find your piece quite misleading. You arrive at the conclusion that Bush was a mistake from the impressions you got on the 1st day. Many 'rubbles' were quite intimidated on the 1st day but things change with time. Your piece would be of more substance if the conclusions you were making also included excerpts from other times of your high school experience.

Unknown said...

Boss hata ka ni chuki sare hizo. Bush is a xul many wanted but wakahata. Sijui unarorolea nani hapa. Needda get some life niggah!

Anonymous said...

Stop peddling lies , there has never been any class sort of a thing at Alliance High School .U came looking for it n spend the fours years searching n thats it exactly wat u found , wat a pity n wasted time!. . Oh n this reminds me we see wat we want to.

Anonymous said...

niccuh u got problems,wait a minute there is a school called alliance high school in kisii

Alan Kuria said...

As much as I think you have amazing creativity and great articles, I do not at all think it is fair to blog such things about 'the school we love the most'. Your article is overly exaggerated, to say the least.
There are always two sides to a coin: if you think Alliance High School was the worst mistake of your life, then try imagine yourself as an old boy of some small district school. You probably wouldn't have known what a blog is, let alone post an article with such good English. You would most probably not have got the grades you have now. You wouldn't even have the courage to mention your school as you do with Bush. What, then, would you say about such a school, if Alliance was a 'slave ship' to you?
Please, do not look at a gift horse in the mouth. Without the education and experience you acquired at Alliance High School, you would never have dreamt of being where you are now.
So please join the rest of us who are grateful to God for having given us the chance to have spent our high school at Bush.

Dr Wafula Nalwa said...

Well. If you think you can you are right, if you think you can't you are right, either way you follow your thoughts.

I came green from the village.

I contended with the same challenges only seeing them as opportunities for growth.

Am a practising Christian, a Consultant Physician now, married with children.

I am strong to serve, thanks to The Alliance High School.

Its so long after you left, FORGIVE AND LET GO, then you will be free to grow and enjoy your life.

Resentment about The Alliance High School is not worthy a whole blog.

Kaisha J. Derrick said...

If you did not find joy at the school we love the most, that is up to you, but do not call it a slave ship and Godless, unless of course you were the heathen slave driver.

angwenyi onyiego said...

I think its the 'powers' given to undeserving individuals called prefects that made life unpleasant for some of us.like they say, power corrupts and absolute power corrupts absolutely

jasper said...

man thats crap your telling us..every single school has its own traditions..silly you complaining out there instead of raising the issues in bushfire etc..i odhiambo lubeto the son of a primary school teacher survived in the same school and even got an opportunity to fly in an exchange programme in the USA,,shame on you

Anonymous said...

Boy waken up ubare in a very weird dream.

Anonymous said...

f u were used 2 white sugarless porridge then you shud ave found yourself in a better place with some sugar.Wherever you are right now i am sure there are people richer than you are, why aren't you complaining about that? Those sons of people with 'fat pockets' also found it hard to adapt to the hard life at school doing stuff they never did at home but i am sure that instead of complaining they are grateful to have had such an experience for they left better people equipped for this cruel world we live in. So sir do not be bitter about how you wasted your four years in AHS and let it out on the school....

Anonymous said...

The truth hearts. I respect frank people! It takes alot of courage! Believe me, i can relate to that.

Ali said...

The truth hearts. I think i can relate to that! In fact i have more to say about this school. I am sure alot will...

James said...

Brother,It's clear to me you did not take the golden opportunity God gave you to join The School.It helps you not to wallow in self pity and frustration in a bid to discredit an institution that embodies discipline.

Anonymous said...

The piece shows that if u went thru Bush then you came out a refined intellect, but then its not helping you as much for you to try out our opinions as Busherians. Further, at least you owned a car and came from Nakuru town-what a contradiction! I doubt if you came out of the school strong in body, mind and soul. Get other intellects to try out!

Anonymous said...

Whoa.my dearest ex-axian brotha..or not..u got sme warpd thinking there bt tiz funny seeing tha otha syd of the coin..Alliance nt as a castle but a portuguese tubeiros? Wel u certainly remembr ua history wel. Nw juz brush up on the Englsh concept of contradictions hehe msee wa ghetto cnt deal wit sugar? Tatz a first.!! Na vile u had mux more privileges than us, xo dearest, get sam help..bt not b4 u finish the rest of ua 'chronicles' ps which hse were u.??

Anonymous said...

lol! This is a really nice piece, i dont think he needs help, he just helped us understand how he felt on his first day, that probably changed soon after and i'm sure he doesn't feel that way today

Anonymous said...

am trying to think about my life in high school and compare with whatever you have written down and those are two totally different schools either you have a really poor esteem and if thats the case sort urself and issues out before complaining about a really prestigious school or u have a really big imagination and if thats the case dont spoil the name of The Alliances! am shocked that u did not benefit from those 4 yrs what a shame, u shld have left and mayb given someone else that opportunity
Quit wallowing with selfpity and make something out of ur life if u have not yet done so!

Owaahh said...

Hahahaha, Phil 'the son of a pedestrian' and yet you "...got out of your father's car"??

Shiku said...

HAHAHAHA!!!!!!! unique character

Anonymous said...

i am surprised that Busherians do not appreciate diversity of ideas and perspective. just because Phil hated marro and brew does not make him odd. Old boys are a shame to Bush.

Godfrey (Goddy) said...

I am dissapointed esp. after alliance group of schools made us proud (class of 2011) all i can advice you to do is...go for you school fees refund, since you gained nothing out of AHS (the sch we love the most) i am proud of AHS atleast the one i know...

Anonymous said...

I'm not sure if this guy went to the one and only Alliance High School.

Anonymous said...

My good friend,
I guess we are all entitled to our opinions. Our different outlook on things.. But I really would not consider Bush Godless by any standard...
Regardless of how strong any of our feelings are about the place and the great diversity our experiences had in the place of our transition from Boys in Men.
That having been said, I will remind you this:
This world owes you nothing. When you were there and did not like the place you always had the option of moving to a more 'ghetto' school if you wanted. We were all there because we chose the school over Mang'u, Starehe, Lenana etc. Do not make it seem like you were forced. Or like you never chose The Alliance high School with your own hand. Do not make it seem like you deserve anything from this world that the rest do not. To be the best, you must compete with the best. It is that simple.
I have no regrets and no apologies for being an AHS Alumni. I made the choice, I worked for it, I made it work for me and it made me who I am today.
I am sorry you do not share this sentiment with me.
I do hope you managed to find peace elsewhere brother... She is an elusive mistress...

Anonymous said...

boy,i think your coming to THE ALLIANCE was a mistake.you sound like an anonymous student from unknown school along the Waiyaki highway.

Anonymous said...

Well written..though I think its purely fiction.
An acrossian recommended this atleast you know you have fans.

massey said...

blasphemy... unheard of...bush is for those people with the gut to get out of there heads and constructively challenge convention. and well, you could easily have told you dad to turn around and be the coward that you are in a more distinct manner

massey said...

blasphemy... unheard of...bush is for those people with the gut to get out of there heads and constructively challenge convention. and well, you could easily have told you dad to turn around and be the coward that you are in a more distinct manner

Mr. Bee said...

Of course your intention was to drive traffic to your blog. You also proved that most of us gullible.
Superb English, well written. I believe the glaring contradictions were deliberate.
Congratulations. You succeeded.

Anonymous said...

It would be interesting to know which year you joined Alliance High School.

Your views may be accurate depending on whether you joined immediately after independence or just before independence.

Anonymous said...

I was a parent...there...I do not know how I have landed on your blog...along the same line....just wondering how you even landed in Bush.

Anonymous said...

I went to AHS, and I think this is satire meant to provoke whatever emotions the writer wants to elicit. I was there in the 80s.Very good school, and I wish more schools were like that.

Anonymous said...

I left AHS in the early 2000's. Those four years changed me and I believe they changed everyone else.Alliance made us so equal and so focussed. Be it Tie Test, SEP, etc.And belive you me, we were treated like adults unlike other schools. Tell me how many other schools would allow you to to school with home attire or even go out of school on weekends and visit across. So when you say such things about this great school,it is such a pity.

Anonymous said...

it was his impression on the first day not all his life

Anonymous said...

You should have come to Mangu.

Anonymous said...

I think the note was half done...

Anonymous said...

Either you are a distasteful troll or you need to see a psychiatrist.Only true Busherians know what Bush was really like.The glaring contradictions prove otherwise.